14/05/09
Hi, the cmc exam went well... Am just hoping I make it this time. But unlike last time, I have wizened up, and have learnt not to expect anything. Let things take their own course. If you are meant to get the seat, nothing can stop you. And if not, nothing you do can help get it. This may make me sound despondent. But this is the reality and the sooner I accept it , the better for me. I don't want to be superstitious, but life does throw up some strange coincidences sometimes that make you believe otherwise.
15/05 1 : 00 PM
Am sitting in the train bound for delhi, tried to read, but it seems impossible to concentrate. There is a small boy about 4 years old travelling with us. Full of energy, and extremely talkative, his enthusiasm and jest for life is infectious and makes me think, that life is more than just about career and money. enjoy the small moments of happiness whenever they come by, you'll end up being more satisfied with life.
15/05 1: 15 PM
What is it about tamil songs that makes even the most tamil-illiterate person enjoy them, I often wonder? Just like any punjabi can make a song of seemingly non-musical words, we have a seemingly tough language arouse immense apeal when made into a song. Maybe its my imagination. hell! Its ok, I don't care if nobody agrees with me....perhaps i am just passing time thinking about this
15/05 1:30 PM
Back on this half yearly pilgrimage, next stop delhi, where I am hoping I go one better than last time and qualify for the practicals. unlike last time, this time a lot of the travelling has not been planned yet, but I don't want to start worrying about that yet and will plan it as and when I get to that point. As a lot of backpackers do, this time around I intend to go round the country without any prior train or bus reservations, but unlike them, for me this will probably mean a lot of expensive air travelling. I Hate spending like this, but this pilgrimage needs me to do this.
16/05
Got here early morning. The metro construction around the area we are staying seems to have put the businesses here out of business. People seem duller, lazier or maybe again just my imagination.
Its election day!!!! Keen to know who wins..
19/05
Who are happy with their lives? I would definitely want to read the mind of a happy man. Perhaps just to know his little secrets to remaining happy. I'm sure happiness doesn't come easily. in its wake there would lie several sacrifices, several compromises and several episodes of ego suppression. And most of all, it would entail a no purposive greed for money. Yep! With all these out of the way, happiness is certainly a thing we can expect. When a person is happy, how long will it last? If this starts to haunt him, then it certainly won't last long. So what's the secret? My guess is follow the same set of rules that you did to make you happy. Don't try to change anything, especially the way you think. I say this is easier said than done. Well!!.... Well said.
20/05
Someone once said "its ok to return emptyhanded, if only the attempt has been true" . Ok, it was me who said it. But Hey, I have to console myself na. As I read the blog I had written around the same time last year and compare myself to that time, I am able to see a difference in my reaction to these unsuccessful attempts at cracking the Dm exam. The same preresult nervousness and anxiety is there, but the depression that used to follow is somehow not there. We are all creatures of habit, guess this is now becoming a habit. But now thinking about my reaction (or the lack of it) I think it maybe that I am insulating myself from the bad news. Incredibly as I write this, I get a phone call from my senior and close friend Vivek that I have qualified for Cmc vellore interviews. I am so surprised at the turn of events that as I make this entry I am at a loss of words to describe how I feel. For the moment till I fully gulp down this bit of happy news, adios.
